Whenever I stop talking at work, people think I’m sad or depressed. Everytime someone asks me, I’m always a little taken aback by it because being quiet, observing or thinking, and keeping to myself is my ‘default’ state of being. It takes a lot of effort to constantly play the social game and sometimes I just don’t want to do it.
I wish the people in my everyday life would pick up on my social cues a little better =/
One of my favorite hobbies is to people watch. I take my lunch break to have a nice smoke at the nearby park (Washington Square park, Philly) and just watch people pass by. There is a group that does bizarre exercises every day from noon to one that I really enjoy observing. I’ve toyed with the thought of finding out what exactly I’ve been watching for the past few months (I’ve been trying to stealth some pictures of them) by asking what I assume to be their instructor, but I just really enjoy people watching.
I understand what you mean about the social game, all to well actually. Personally, interacting with anything other than a pet (dog, cat, ferret on occasion) requires me to make far more decisions on what I say and do than the alternative. With animals (domesticated) it is easy to understand and participate in the hierarchy, but with people it is so varied that, over time, it drains me. I’m not sure if it is me not wanting to alter my comfort zone too much or not, but it is more comfortable to observe than it is to participate.